I’m not a big fan of being in that “talking” stage where it’s all just a chase or that whole “friends with benefits” thing. I’m more into something being official and serious. I’m sure I have the potential to be a great girlfriend now and I really do want an actual relationship, but maybe I’m just thinking wishfully. I mean cute phone calls morning and night, random text messages throughout the day, having someone try for you, commit to you, having someone to call your own, and all of that simpy stuff sounds so perfect. I want all of that. But I want all of that without all the stupid things that make relationships difficult. You know. The endless doubts, the insecurities, the jealousy, the patience and thorough understanding, the arguments … I’m ready but I’m not ready enough. And I feel that being single, I’d always envy people’s relationships, but once I get myself into one, I’ll miss the single life and I wouldn’t want to have to deal with my relationship.