I swear, I’m sick of this. It’s the same cycle over and over; where you call and I always pick up. Where I know what’s expected, but go for it anyway. Where I keep saying I’m done and make it a point that you’re no good for me, I put my guard up high and swear not to let you in, let you in regardless, say things I mean while you lie and say things you don’t, then I end up hurting from everything I do to keep you around.
I’m being stupid.
I’m being weak.
When I know for a fact I’m neither of the two.

I don’t want this anymore. 
I can’t take it.
It’s driving me crazy and I sure as hell don’t need this.
There’s really nothing more that I want than it to stop, but I swear it’s the hardest thing.